It’s rare I find auditions surprising, but the other day, I auditioned for something unexpected and wild: I had to make up an entire language using real script lines but no real words. At first, I felt utterly intimidated. How could I bring authenticity to a language that doesn’t exist? And then, of course, there was the inevitable ego-battle: “What if I sound ridiculous?” “How will they take me seriously?”
But here’s the thing about ego: it’s the weight that keeps us grounded in the ordinary. Sometimes, it’s only by letting go that we truly play. That’s what I realized the moment I let my guard down and stopped listening to myself. I pushed through the fear and uncertainty and found myself genuinely enjoying it. Making up sounds, inventing rhythms, letting go of perfection…suddenly, I was free. In that place of freedom, I gave the best audition I could. And here’s the real secret: that freedom to not know is the space where artistry happens.
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